First Exist part 1

I saw places I never imagined and went to places my imagination had already taken me. Now I lie in the ashes of the passage that once was and awate the next part of my journey. I look back at many missed opportunities and many things I should have done. Yet I can´t help but realize that I learned more than I could ever have anywhere else. I did somethings, many things, that I would have gone lifetimes without doing. And I planted many seeds that will grow strong one day, I hope. Yet I lie somewhat dissapointed at opportunities missed. It´s as if I have chosen to never mature. God keeps throwing goldmines in my path, and I keep dodging them as if I am waiting for a grand life that might never come. I should learn to live my life the way I have mastered acting like I do. If I was half the man I imagine, I would be happy without a doubt. I keep waiting for perfection even though it´s imperfection I desire. As I wait for one day I miss out on a million. Now that I think about it the trade isn´t worth it. I should live my life the way life is intended to be lived. In the now. Of course I´ve always known this, and I always will.